Archive | January 2013

Engagements ?

So, Paul and I talk about our future together a lot, and whenever we talk about it it’s taken for granted that we will be getting married in the near future.
Since we’re catholic, we need to have a minimum of a 6 month engagement.

So the big question is.. If we talk as if we’re getting married this year, it should be coming up right?

And so the wait begins…

On another note, school is going okay. I’m a bit over whelmed, but with the help of my family it hasn’t been unbearable. It’s kind of scary that I don’t know where I’ll be living or where I’m going to college next year, which is surprising given the fact that I usually have everything planned out in my life. I pretty much have to wait until I get a since of where Paul is going to college and base my decisions around that. Hopefully he will know soon.



Academic Success

At the beginning of each semester, I always feel stressed and anxious. I feel like my academic success is reflective of my self worth. Everyone looks down on community college, people from my old private high school openly say that it’s where all the dumb people go. I know that community college is the only option for high school dropouts, and that even people with a gpa below a 2.5 can get in. However, that doesn’t mean that I’m part of that group of people. I can use the fact that the classes aren’t as challenging to my advantage; by boosting my gpa, I will become closer at achieving my career goals.

At my academically rigorous private high school, I was a B student. I was doing


, but was never able to achieve a perfect 4.0. After I chose to leave the private school and become dual enrolled at the local community college and do homeschooling,I now have a 4.0 gpa. For once it feels good to feel like my work is paying off.

If I had stayed at the “superior” private school that I had previously attended, my gpa would be that of a B student.

Not only is my overall gpa higher now, but I also have many college credits on my résumé.
I stand my decision to leave, and I won’t look back. I don’t care if its not prestigious enough for my peers. I now see there’s no reason to feel anxious.

About Me


A New Year

I do not know where to begin.. this past year has been one of the most challenging and difficult years of my life. I know what you’re thinking, “everyone says that”, but believe me when I say, my year was absolutely extraordinary. I’d like this opportunity to explain the caption of my blog:

“Teenager, college student, girlfriend, and most importantly mother.”

Girlfriend and Mother:

Paul and I have been dating for a little over two years. Right around our first year anniversary, we found out I was pregnant with our daughter, Maire. She wasn’t planned, and we were in denial that it could ever happen to us. Adoption and abortion were not an option; Paul had a good job to support her and my parents allowed my baby and I to still live with them until I was finished with college. My pregnancy was terrific, no horrible symptoms (except feeling like a whale towards the end :P), and with no complications or c-section. Paul was loving and comforting throughout the whole pregnancy, he made me feel beautiful, even though like I said before, I felt like a whale at times. Marie was born 7Ibs 12oz and 23 inches long, completely healthy and absolutely beautiful. Although I will admit only getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night the first 2 weeks out of the hospital (she had her nights and days mixed up) was very difficult, it was absolutely worth it! I love my daughter more than anything, and I can now proudly report that she sleeps almost completely through the night, and sleeps in until 9-10am :)! Paul has stuck by my side through all the difficulties and challenges we have faced, and is a wonderful father and boyfriend. (As a side note, it’s odd calling him boyfriend.. because he’s so much more to me than that.)


I attend the community college a few minutes down the road from my home. So far I’ve completed 36 credits with a 4.0! If everything goes well next semester, hopefully I’ll have 53 credits with a 4.0 (fingers crossed). My goal is to get accepted to lfcc’s lpn or rn program (nursing). The courses I’m taking are pre-reqs to their nursing program, and will increase my chances of getting accepted, they include:

SDV 101 Orientation to Health Professions 1
ENG 111 College Composition I 3
BIO 141 Anatomy and Physiology I 4
BIO 142 Anatomy and Physiology II 4
BIO 150 Microbiology 4

As well as Ethics, Sociology, Dev. Psychology, nutrition and diet therapy, and public speaking. I’ve completed about half of these, the next half will be next semester.. taking 17 credits starting Monday.


I recently turned 18, but sometimes I oddly feel as if I’m already in my 30s. There are two reasons for this:

1. I do not party, drink, or smoke, and I don’t date around, (though I did date in middleschool, and my freshman year of highschool).

2. I simply do not want all of the things listed above. I’m not interested in that life style and never have been. I just want to settle down and raise a family with Paul, that’s the most important/fulfilling thing that I will ever do. And just do my nerdy as that sounds..

Well, that’s kind of an over view of me, more to come!